Oh dear...

This is a lie. Time is definitely NOT flying by around here. I can't believe it's only 3:30! How will I survive the next hour and a half? 90 minutes, people!

It doesn't help that today is the worst I've felt yet (and I know it's going to get much worse...), AND it's Friday. I just want to get out of here, survive the ride home without puking, and take a nap.

Sadly for me, Hubby's sisters are coming tonight and we're going to a baseball game. I will have to stay awake (and not puke) for a few more hours...

In happier news, we decided to tell our parents last night. We just couldn't wait anymore! Everyone is thrilled, as are we. Maybe a little shocked, but mostly just fantastically excited! I feel so happy inside, knowing that I can talk about my baby with my mom. It almost makes the nausea subside. Almost.

Oh dear...

This is a lie. Time is definitely NOT flying by around here. I can't believe it's only 3:30! How will I survive the next hour and a half? 90 minutes, people!

It doesn't help that today is the worst I've felt yet (and I know it's going to get much worse...), AND it's Friday. I just want to get out of here, survive the ride home without puking, and take a nap.

Sadly for me, Hubby's sisters are coming tonight and we're going to a baseball game. I will have to stay awake (and not puke) for a few more hours...

In happier news, we decided to tell our parents last night. We just couldn't wait anymore! Everyone is thrilled, as are we. Maybe a little shocked, but mostly just fantastically excited! I feel so happy inside, knowing that I can talk about my baby with my mom. It almost makes the nausea subside. Almost.

Ah sweet relief!

First of all, let me just say that Gas-X is my hero. I popped one Tuesday night and another yesterday morning, and have been feeling worlds better ever since.

Not wearing pants has also helped in this regard!
I took myself to Target last night and bought four comfy cotton STRETCHY skirts. They all have elastic waists, and they all make me immensely happy. With the two elastic waist skirts I already had, I feel as though I can alternate the group and never wear buttoned pants again! VICTORY!

Ah sweet relief!

First of all, let me just say that Gas-X is my hero. I popped one Tuesday night and another yesterday morning, and have been feeling worlds better ever since.

Not wearing pants has also helped in this regard!
I took myself to Target last night and bought four comfy cotton STRETCHY skirts. They all have elastic waists, and they all make me immensely happy. With the two elastic waist skirts I already had, I feel as though I can alternate the group and never wear buttoned pants again! VICTORY!

Holy Cow

I am so bloated it hurts. I'm sitting at work with my pants unbuttoned, feverishly praying that my shirt hides the flapping button, and no one notices. I had a skirt (with elastic waist!) to wear today, but it was just too cold and rainy for it. I really hope tomorrow is better. I just can't do pants again!

Holy Cow

I am so bloated it hurts. I'm sitting at work with my pants unbuttoned, feverishly praying that my shirt hides the flapping button, and no one notices. I had a skirt (with elastic waist!) to wear today, but it was just too cold and rainy for it. I really hope tomorrow is better. I just can't do pants again!

So Happy

I am still just floating on air over the BFP on Thursday. Even with the stabbing abdominal pain, back cramps, nausea and ravenous hunger, I just keep smiling. Hubby is over the moon, and begging to tell certain friends and family. As much as I want to tell (I'm horrible with secrets), I'm holding out for a few weeks. We have our first OB appointment on June 10th (can't get here soon enough), and I just want to make sure everything goes well with that first. But I am just busting at the seams (literally) with this secret!

It was all I could do on Friday to make it through the day without telling my friends... We were sitting at lunch talking about how we knew when our other friend was pregnant, and I just wanted to scream, "I AM TOO!!!" I hope the next few weeks go by quickly... C'mon June 10th!

So Happy

I am still just floating on air over the BFP on Thursday. Even with the stabbing abdominal pain, back cramps, nausea and ravenous hunger, I just keep smiling. Hubby is over the moon, and begging to tell certain friends and family. As much as I want to tell (I'm horrible with secrets), I'm holding out for a few weeks. We have our first OB appointment on June 10th (can't get here soon enough), and I just want to make sure everything goes well with that first. But I am just busting at the seams (literally) with this secret!

It was all I could do on Friday to make it through the day without telling my friends... We were sitting at lunch talking about how we knew when our other friend was pregnant, and I just wanted to scream, "I AM TOO!!!" I hope the next few weeks go by quickly... C'mon June 10th!

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so happy

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so happy

Messing with my head

I feel like crap! I ate my lunch, followed immediately thereafter by a serious need for the bathroom. I felt like my insides were going to tear me apart. And did I mention it was all I could do to NOT puke??

Either I'm pregnant, or the mean reds mean serious business this month.

When can I test again???

Messing with my head

I feel like crap! I ate my lunch, followed immediately thereafter by a serious need for the bathroom. I felt like my insides were going to tear me apart. And did I mention it was all I could do to NOT puke??

Either I'm pregnant, or the mean reds mean serious business this month.

When can I test again???

New Favorite Song

So last night on my train ride home, a song popped up on my iPod that I have not heard in a long time. And if I had heard it, I probably didn't really hear what the lyrics were saying. Last night, the words truly hit me. I loved what it was saying!

There's a place I go when I'm alone

Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be

My place is here! I started this blog because I've been feeling isolated and alone. But here, I can get everything off my chest, without caring about hurting anyone's feelings or being awkward or anything. This is MY place to be whoever I want.

I've been feeling alone lately with all the TTC going on. My best friend is single, and desperate for a boyfriend. I can commiserate with her desire. I can't imagine going home to an empty apartment every night after a long day of work. The single most happy time of my day is when I pull into the driveway and Hubby greets me on the porch with Girly spinning around at our feet. BUT it is entirely because my friend feels so alone that I can't talk to her about TTC. She even said when I got married that it would be too much for her to handle if Hubby and I had a baby before she had a boyfriend.

Not to make my dear friend sound terrible. I just know how lonely she feels sometimes. To be fair, I did let her know that Hubby and I are trying, and she'll be one of the first to know if anything takes. But since I can't talk to her about the trying process, I am feeling a little pent up. I have all these emotions racing through my head that I can't release - except for here.

I don't know what I would do if I didn't have this place. So that is why I have chosen "Dream Catch Me" by Newton Faulkner as the anthem for my safe haven.

New Favorite Song

So last night on my train ride home, a song popped up on my iPod that I have not heard in a long time. And if I had heard it, I probably didn't really hear what the lyrics were saying. Last night, the words truly hit me. I loved what it was saying!

There's a place I go when I'm alone

Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be

My place is here! I started this blog because I've been feeling isolated and alone. But here, I can get everything off my chest, without caring about hurting anyone's feelings or being awkward or anything. This is MY place to be whoever I want.

I've been feeling alone lately with all the TTC going on. My best friend is single, and desperate for a boyfriend. I can commiserate with her desire. I can't imagine going home to an empty apartment every night after a long day of work. The single most happy time of my day is when I pull into the driveway and Hubby greets me on the porch with Girly spinning around at our feet. BUT it is entirely because my friend feels so alone that I can't talk to her about TTC. She even said when I got married that it would be too much for her to handle if Hubby and I had a baby before she had a boyfriend.

Not to make my dear friend sound terrible. I just know how lonely she feels sometimes. To be fair, I did let her know that Hubby and I are trying, and she'll be one of the first to know if anything takes. But since I can't talk to her about the trying process, I am feeling a little pent up. I have all these emotions racing through my head that I can't release - except for here.

I don't know what I would do if I didn't have this place. So that is why I have chosen "Dream Catch Me" by Newton Faulkner as the anthem for my safe haven.

Bad girl.

I'm grumpy today. I had to stand the whole train ride into work. And I have no patience for people today. I will probably try to be as pleasant as possible to my coworkers, but no promises. I might get snappy.

I was also a bad girl last night. I took a HPT. I was planning to wait till my period was late, or until I had some really solid pregnancy symptoms... but the little pink box just called to me at the grocery store last night. And it kept yelling at me to POAS for the next three hours, until I just couldn't ignore it anymore. So I peed. And it was negative.

Maybe I'll learn to wait.

Probably not.

Bad girl.

I'm grumpy today. I had to stand the whole train ride into work. And I have no patience for people today. I will probably try to be as pleasant as possible to my coworkers, but no promises. I might get snappy.

I was also a bad girl last night. I took a HPT. I was planning to wait till my period was late, or until I had some really solid pregnancy symptoms... but the little pink box just called to me at the grocery store last night. And it kept yelling at me to POAS for the next three hours, until I just couldn't ignore it anymore. So I peed. And it was negative.

Maybe I'll learn to wait.

Probably not.

When is Naptime?

i. am. exhausted.

Hubby and I spent the weekend running around to see friends and family. I am now at work, barely able to keep my eyes open! One of those days where I wish I could still drink caffeine... Alas, I will have to make do with chamomile tea and honey (bor-ing!)

I was able to avoid alcohol all weekend. I don't think I got any raised eyebrows or anthing. I mean, my parents know we are trying, so I'm sure they didn't think anything too much about my choice of birch beer over Miller Lite last night. And there was so much going on Saturday night that I'm sure no one cared if I was drinking or not. That designated driver excuse sure does come in handy!

So let's just spend the rest of the week hoping the Mean Red doesn't show up. So far, it's looking good... And here I go getting my hopes up!

When is Naptime?

i. am. exhausted.

Hubby and I spent the weekend running around to see friends and family. I am now at work, barely able to keep my eyes open! One of those days where I wish I could still drink caffeine... Alas, I will have to make do with chamomile tea and honey (bor-ing!)

I was able to avoid alcohol all weekend. I don't think I got any raised eyebrows or anthing. I mean, my parents know we are trying, so I'm sure they didn't think anything too much about my choice of birch beer over Miller Lite last night. And there was so much going on Saturday night that I'm sure no one cared if I was drinking or not. That designated driver excuse sure does come in handy!

So let's just spend the rest of the week hoping the Mean Red doesn't show up. So far, it's looking good... And here I go getting my hopes up!

Musings

It's summer! Got to be. I got my first iced "coffee" drink of the season. I say "coffee," because it was a chai latte with soy milk. I just hate that I can't have coffee, caffeine or milk without feeling like crap.

In other news, I have this feeling that maybe my cycle is really weird this month, and that maybe I ovulated really late. I also have a strange little ping of pain just above my pelvic bone on the left side. Am I too hopeful and just imagining things? Is this just a weird pre-period cramp? I hope it's the former.

Meanwhile, I've spent the last two days breathing in potentially toxic fumes at work.
Real smart.

Musings

It's summer! Got to be. I got my first iced "coffee" drink of the season. I say "coffee," because it was a chai latte with soy milk. I just hate that I can't have coffee, caffeine or milk without feeling like crap.

In other news, I have this feeling that maybe my cycle is really weird this month, and that maybe I ovulated really late. I also have a strange little ping of pain just above my pelvic bone on the left side. Am I too hopeful and just imagining things? Is this just a weird pre-period cramp? I hope it's the former.

Meanwhile, I've spent the last two days breathing in potentially toxic fumes at work.
Real smart.

Hooray!

The sun is shining! My rain-induced depression has lifted! Maybe spring IS here!

In other news, I had to admit that Hubby was right about something last night. He was right and I was wrong. We should have just bought the damn oven online. Going to Sears to "see what it's like" was stupid. Sears didn't even have a floor display of the stupid thing! And the salesman was a total moron. We'll buy the thing online today and be done with it.

Don't you just hate it when your hubby is right?

Hooray!

The sun is shining! My rain-induced depression has lifted! Maybe spring IS here!

In other news, I had to admit that Hubby was right about something last night. He was right and I was wrong. We should have just bought the damn oven online. Going to Sears to "see what it's like" was stupid. Sears didn't even have a floor display of the stupid thing! And the salesman was a total moron. We'll buy the thing online today and be done with it.

Don't you just hate it when your hubby is right?

What is going on?

On the one hand, I can't be pregs because my temp chart looks like it decided to end it's life by jumping off a cliff.



On the other hand, I am so nauseous and tired. I am often tired, but never (EVER) nauseous. I wish I knew what was going on in my life.



I also wish it would stop raining. This weather is seriously bringing me down. It's MAY! It should be sunny and on the verge of too hot! Instead, I'm bundled up like an eskimo every night, and crawling out of bed in cloud-induced darkness every morning.



And yet, there is some hope in this world. The Penguins beat the Caps in overtime last night. Let us all rejoice.

What is going on?

On the one hand, I can't be pregs because my temp chart looks like it decided to end it's life by jumping off a cliff.



On the other hand, I am so nauseous and tired. I am often tired, but never (EVER) nauseous. I wish I knew what was going on in my life.



I also wish it would stop raining. This weather is seriously bringing me down. It's MAY! It should be sunny and on the verge of too hot! Instead, I'm bundled up like an eskimo every night, and crawling out of bed in cloud-induced darkness every morning.



And yet, there is some hope in this world. The Penguins beat the Caps in overtime last night. Let us all rejoice.

Rain Rain Go Away!

Well, the meeting wasn't actually all that bad. But this rain is terrible! It's been raining and cold for days now. And just when I thought it was spring and getting warmer! I don't want to do anything except eat cookies in my pajamas.

Not to mention the fact that I have no idea what my body is doing, conception wise. I track my temperature every morning, and this month looks like a roller coaster! First I spike, then I plummet. Only to spike again. Did I ovulate? Will I? Guess the only thing to it is to keep bugging Hubby for more bedtime till my little friend comes to visit! I hope she doesn't...

Rain Rain Go Away!

Well, the meeting wasn't actually all that bad. But this rain is terrible! It's been raining and cold for days now. And just when I thought it was spring and getting warmer! I don't want to do anything except eat cookies in my pajamas.

Not to mention the fact that I have no idea what my body is doing, conception wise. I track my temperature every morning, and this month looks like a roller coaster! First I spike, then I plummet. Only to spike again. Did I ovulate? Will I? Guess the only thing to it is to keep bugging Hubby for more bedtime till my little friend comes to visit! I hope she doesn't...

Save me!

I'll be in an all-day meeting today. I might need some resuscitation by chocolate by 5:00...

Save me!

I'll be in an all-day meeting today. I might need some resuscitation by chocolate by 5:00...

I'm so proud of me!

In the words of the great Liz Lemon,

"I'm going to the gym later, so I deserve a treat!"

That's pretty much how I feel every day. Except (much like Liz Lemon) I never actually make it to the gym. I am so good at finding perfectly valid excuses for myself (and sometimes others)!

I'm an enabler.

But today was different. Today I went to the gym! And it felt good. Much better use of my time than watching ANOTHER episode of ER on DVD. Now I really deserve a treat :-)

I'm so proud of me!

In the words of the great Liz Lemon,

"I'm going to the gym later, so I deserve a treat!"

That's pretty much how I feel every day. Except (much like Liz Lemon) I never actually make it to the gym. I am so good at finding perfectly valid excuses for myself (and sometimes others)!

I'm an enabler.

But today was different. Today I went to the gym! And it felt good. Much better use of my time than watching ANOTHER episode of ER on DVD. Now I really deserve a treat :-)

How Sweet?

Day Off!

I had yesterday off and it felt so good! Did I spend my free day organizing the house? No. Mitigating the mountains of laundry? Nope! I went shopping. It was great! I haven't been shopping in ages.

My big dilemma is that I have been needing (and wanting) some new spring/summer clothes. BUT I didn't want to spend a lot on clothes then get pregnant and not be able to wear them. So I compromised. I bought a bunch of really cute shirts that I can wear now and look totally normal, but will have some give for when (I hope soon!) I am pregnant.

Is it a little nutty to be buying normal clothes with the hope that I won't fit in them soon? Probably. But you know what? I have never wanted anything so badly as I want a baby right now. With that in mind, I am happily sporting one of my new shirts right now :-)

I love new clothes!

How Sweet?

Day Off!

I had yesterday off and it felt so good! Did I spend my free day organizing the house? No. Mitigating the mountains of laundry? Nope! I went shopping. It was great! I haven't been shopping in ages.

My big dilemma is that I have been needing (and wanting) some new spring/summer clothes. BUT I didn't want to spend a lot on clothes then get pregnant and not be able to wear them. So I compromised. I bought a bunch of really cute shirts that I can wear now and look totally normal, but will have some give for when (I hope soon!) I am pregnant.

Is it a little nutty to be buying normal clothes with the hope that I won't fit in them soon? Probably. But you know what? I have never wanted anything so badly as I want a baby right now. With that in mind, I am happily sporting one of my new shirts right now :-)

I love new clothes!

I'm impressed

Hubby had LASIK today... and still wanted a little afternoon romp! I won't lie, he looked like he was in serious pain the entire time. My desire for his little guys to find an easter egg outweighed my misgivings about the whole affair.

I'm impressed

Hubby had LASIK today... and still wanted a little afternoon romp! I won't lie, he looked like he was in serious pain the entire time. My desire for his little guys to find an easter egg outweighed my misgivings about the whole affair.