Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Year's Resolutions

There are many little things I'd love to better about myself in 2010:

I'd love to be one of those moms that looks better after giving birth than she did before she was pregnant...
I'd love to kick my habit of procrastinating...
I'd love to be better about keeping the house clean...
I'd love to stop bickering with Hubby over "What's for dinner?", and actually have a meal planned ahead...

But I feel like all of these resolutions are meaningless if I'm not a good mommy. So this year, my resolution is simply to survive my first year as a mom with as few tears as possible!

What is your New Year's resolution??

New Year's Resolutions

There are many little things I'd love to better about myself in 2010:

I'd love to be one of those moms that looks better after giving birth than she did before she was pregnant...
I'd love to kick my habit of procrastinating...
I'd love to be better about keeping the house clean...
I'd love to stop bickering with Hubby over "What's for dinner?", and actually have a meal planned ahead...

But I feel like all of these resolutions are meaningless if I'm not a good mommy. So this year, my resolution is simply to survive my first year as a mom with as few tears as possible!

What is your New Year's resolution??

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

A year in review

What an eventful year! Here's a little recap:

In January, we rang in the new year full of hope.
Hope that our beloved sports teams would play well.
Hope that we would survive another school year.
Hope that the mortgage industry would rally.
Hope that our newly-made plans to start a family would bring only happiness...

In February, I went on a whirlwind European adventure with my mom and sister.
How funny to wander the streets of Europe, looking at tiny little baby clothes (so much better than anything in America) without buying a single thing. Because I didn't want to jinx our plans to begin trying.

In March, we visited Hubby's family for a baby shower. And just smiled to ourselves thinking that with any luck, we would be next.

In April, my baby fever was out of control... so I started this blog! Thanks for reading! In the midst of finals, I took my first pregnancy test. And while it was negative, I could not have been more excited about the process we were just beginning.

In May, we received the happiest news of all. A positive pregnancy test! Hubby and I still cannot how incredibly lucky we are to have created our little Lulu so quickly. I read blogs of couples that have been trying for years, and my heart goes out to them. Just as I am elated to hear of the positive pregnancy test results for every one of them!

In June, our pregnancy was confirmed with ultrasounds. I was in the full swing of first trimester grossness - although I even got lucky here! A little queasiness, but no puking!

By July, I was into my second trimester and finished with summer classes. Hubby and I celebrated our second wedding anniversary by making our happy news public.

In August, Hubby and I were able to visit my family twice! And even though August was on its way out... we learned that our little friend is a girl! Break out the pink, because Lulu is coming to town!

By September, I was back at school and rocking my pregnancy. I suffered a little tinge of jealousy with the birth of our best friends' little boy. And while I was able to get over it (and am soooo excited for my little girl!!), I also learned that my feelings were perfectly normal. And did I mention that we got to meet our best friends' little boy?! It's been quite the year for babies in our little group of friends!

In October, I finally found comfy maternity pants. And just in time for a long weekend with friends! We also began seeing Lulu's little kicks, both creepy and spectacular! Hubby and I could truly begin to appreciate the life growing in my tummy looking at those little wobbles and rolls.

In November, I was honored with THREE baby showers! And while I just realized that I never posted about the third, they were all incredibly special. Hubby, Lulu and I truly have the most wonderful friends and family. We also got to eat a lot of turkey and other yumminess in November - hooray for the kick-off of the holidays!

In December, I suddenly realized that they tell you to slow down for a reason! I truly began to understand that late-pregnancy discomfort - shortness of breath, weird little cramps, fatigue... and internal exams! But, Hubby and I still feel as though this has been a dream pregnancy. I have had only minor discomforts, and minimal emotional break-downs!

And here we are in the final days of 2009. Looking back, this was definitely a baby-themed year from the start. We've come so far from the first tugs at my heart of baby fever. I look at Hubby everyday, and am even more in love with him. He has simply astounded me with his tenderness during the past nine months. And now that we have January 2010 in our sights, I am even more excited for what our future will bring. Miss Lulu, you are already so much a part of our lives. I can't wait to meet you!

And blog friends? Thank you for reading all year!

You may have noticed

The little icon to the right of my newest posts -->

I found this site through this fantastic blog. And have had so much fun reading other mommy blogs! And let's face it, this blog quickly transitioned from my little internet diary to a mommy blog. In record speed.

At any rate, I would love to have more readers following my ramblings. And this site will help! Click on the icon, the link below the icon, or here to put in your vote for me as a wonderful blog! The link will bring you to their homepage, where you can find all sorts of mommy blogs to read, follow and enjoy.

A year in review

What an eventful year! Here's a little recap:

In January, we rang in the new year full of hope.
Hope that our beloved sports teams would play well.
Hope that we would survive another school year.
Hope that the mortgage industry would rally.
Hope that our newly-made plans to start a family would bring only happiness...

In February, I went on a whirlwind European adventure with my mom and sister.
How funny to wander the streets of Europe, looking at tiny little baby clothes (so much better than anything in America) without buying a single thing. Because I didn't want to jinx our plans to begin trying.

In March, we visited Hubby's family for a baby shower. And just smiled to ourselves thinking that with any luck, we would be next.

In April, my baby fever was out of control... so I started this blog! Thanks for reading! In the midst of finals, I took my first pregnancy test. And while it was negative, I could not have been more excited about the process we were just beginning.

In May, we received the happiest news of all. A positive pregnancy test! Hubby and I still cannot how incredibly lucky we are to have created our little Lulu so quickly. I read blogs of couples that have been trying for years, and my heart goes out to them. Just as I am elated to hear of the positive pregnancy test results for every one of them!

In June, our pregnancy was confirmed with ultrasounds. I was in the full swing of first trimester grossness - although I even got lucky here! A little queasiness, but no puking!

By July, I was into my second trimester and finished with summer classes. Hubby and I celebrated our second wedding anniversary by making our happy news public.

In August, Hubby and I were able to visit my family twice! And even though August was on its way out... we learned that our little friend is a girl! Break out the pink, because Lulu is coming to town!

By September, I was back at school and rocking my pregnancy. I suffered a little tinge of jealousy with the birth of our best friends' little boy. And while I was able to get over it (and am soooo excited for my little girl!!), I also learned that my feelings were perfectly normal. And did I mention that we got to meet our best friends' little boy?! It's been quite the year for babies in our little group of friends!

In October, I finally found comfy maternity pants. And just in time for a long weekend with friends! We also began seeing Lulu's little kicks, both creepy and spectacular! Hubby and I could truly begin to appreciate the life growing in my tummy looking at those little wobbles and rolls.

In November, I was honored with THREE baby showers! And while I just realized that I never posted about the third, they were all incredibly special. Hubby, Lulu and I truly have the most wonderful friends and family. We also got to eat a lot of turkey and other yumminess in November - hooray for the kick-off of the holidays!

In December, I suddenly realized that they tell you to slow down for a reason! I truly began to understand that late-pregnancy discomfort - shortness of breath, weird little cramps, fatigue... and internal exams! But, Hubby and I still feel as though this has been a dream pregnancy. I have had only minor discomforts, and minimal emotional break-downs!

And here we are in the final days of 2009. Looking back, this was definitely a baby-themed year from the start. We've come so far from the first tugs at my heart of baby fever. I look at Hubby everyday, and am even more in love with him. He has simply astounded me with his tenderness during the past nine months. And now that we have January 2010 in our sights, I am even more excited for what our future will bring. Miss Lulu, you are already so much a part of our lives. I can't wait to meet you!

And blog friends? Thank you for reading all year!

You may have noticed

The little icon to the right of my newest posts -->

I found this site through this fantastic blog. And have had so much fun reading other mommy blogs! And let's face it, this blog quickly transitioned from my little internet diary to a mommy blog. In record speed.

At any rate, I would love to have more readers following my ramblings. And this site will help! Click on the icon, the link below the icon, or here to put in your vote for me as a wonderful blog! The link will bring you to their homepage, where you can find all sorts of mommy blogs to read, follow and enjoy.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Time to slow down...

So everyone kept telling me to take it easy, slow down, rest...

And everyone kept telling me that things would get harder. It would be harder to breath, harder to walk, harder to put socks on...

But I felt fine for so long! I seriously didn't believe them. I had great energy, flexibility, lung capacity...

And now I'm finally starting to realize that it's time to slow down! I have done so much the last week or so, visiting the in-laws and having my family visit us. I am just pooped. I have been up way past my bedtime for several days in a row. My nose is stuffy, so between that and, yes, my severely reduced lung capacity, I'm having trouble breathing. I just want to lie down! And nap! And spend all day under the covers! Instead, I'm at work.

And they really aren't lying about that lung capacity thing. I feel like my diaphragm is IN my stomach!

PS - like the face lift??

Time to slow down...

So everyone kept telling me to take it easy, slow down, rest...

And everyone kept telling me that things would get harder. It would be harder to breath, harder to walk, harder to put socks on...

But I felt fine for so long! I seriously didn't believe them. I had great energy, flexibility, lung capacity...

And now I'm finally starting to realize that it's time to slow down! I have done so much the last week or so, visiting the in-laws and having my family visit us. I am just pooped. I have been up way past my bedtime for several days in a row. My nose is stuffy, so between that and, yes, my severely reduced lung capacity, I'm having trouble breathing. I just want to lie down! And nap! And spend all day under the covers! Instead, I'm at work.

And they really aren't lying about that lung capacity thing. I feel like my diaphragm is IN my stomach!

PS - like the face lift??

Monday, December 28, 2009

35 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: Probably around 30, but I don't care anymore.
Maternity clothes? Still struggling to get shirts to cover me.
Sleep: I love Benadryl. I have a very stuffy nose, especially at night. Don't hate.
Best moment this week: CHRISTMAS!!! Spending time with in-laws without wanting to scream and having my family down for a few days!
Movement: A LOT.
Food cravings: I really wanted Brigham's Chocolate Chip ice cream this week... and my awesome parents found a way to get it to me!
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: Definitely feeling some contractions (not real ones), and the pelvis is still spreading to make room.
Belly button? I think it's finally out! I have a weird button...
What I miss: Sitting comfortably for a full day.
Weekly wisdom: For maximum comfort, move around and then sit and then move around and then sit, etc.
Milestones: I had a Christmas Revelation this year. OMG - I am a mommy and an adult. I received a new dryer, a new garage door, and removal of some oversize junk for Christmas. And I could not have been more excited! I also looked in the mirror last night and realized that the (really cute) haircut I got on Monday is totally a "Mom" haircut. I think this is what being a grown-up feels like... Weird!

I also realized that December 25th is just an arbitrary day on which to celebrate Christmas. This was my first Christmas away from "home" (my parent's), and I was really upset about it for a while. Until the 25th came and went, and everything felt ok. Hubby and I had Christmas Eve and Christmas at his parent's house. My family came down the next day to our house (I can't do the drive right now... too long...). While it was weird going a whole December without seeing my mom's decorations, we still got to spend time with our families. And I realized that the actual DAY of Christmas doesn't matter - it's the ability to see loved ones, in whatever way, on whatever day that really matters!

This realization added to my feeling of adultness.

35 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: Probably around 30, but I don't care anymore.
Maternity clothes? Still struggling to get shirts to cover me.
Sleep: I love Benadryl. I have a very stuffy nose, especially at night. Don't hate.
Best moment this week: CHRISTMAS!!! Spending time with in-laws without wanting to scream and having my family down for a few days!
Movement: A LOT.
Food cravings: I really wanted Brigham's Chocolate Chip ice cream this week... and my awesome parents found a way to get it to me!
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: Definitely feeling some contractions (not real ones), and the pelvis is still spreading to make room.
Belly button? I think it's finally out! I have a weird button...
What I miss: Sitting comfortably for a full day.
Weekly wisdom: For maximum comfort, move around and then sit and then move around and then sit, etc.
Milestones: I had a Christmas Revelation this year. OMG - I am a mommy and an adult. I received a new dryer, a new garage door, and removal of some oversize junk for Christmas. And I could not have been more excited! I also looked in the mirror last night and realized that the (really cute) haircut I got on Monday is totally a "Mom" haircut. I think this is what being a grown-up feels like... Weird!

I also realized that December 25th is just an arbitrary day on which to celebrate Christmas. This was my first Christmas away from "home" (my parent's), and I was really upset about it for a while. Until the 25th came and went, and everything felt ok. Hubby and I had Christmas Eve and Christmas at his parent's house. My family came down the next day to our house (I can't do the drive right now... too long...). While it was weird going a whole December without seeing my mom's decorations, we still got to spend time with our families. And I realized that the actual DAY of Christmas doesn't matter - it's the ability to see loved ones, in whatever way, on whatever day that really matters!

This realization added to my feeling of adultness.

Friday, December 25, 2009

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

May your day be merry and bright!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

May your day be merry and bright!

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Merry Christmas Eve!

I'm at work today, for a few hours, in order to save up as much leave as I can for Lulu. And since I was so uncomfortable yesterday, today I wore a velour sweatsuit and sneakers to work.

Don't worry - I dressed it up with a strand of pearls!

Merry Christmas Eve!

I'm at work today, for a few hours, in order to save up as much leave as I can for Lulu. And since I was so uncomfortable yesterday, today I wore a velour sweatsuit and sneakers to work.

Don't worry - I dressed it up with a strand of pearls!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Pubis Symphysis

The Pubis Symphysis is the area where the bones of the pelvis come together and are held by some ligament tissue or something. This is also the area that, in a woman, spreads prior to squeezing out a 7-pound baby. From reading wikipedia, this spreading happens in most women during labor and delivery.

Most women.

Lucky me, my pelvis has already started spreading! While I'm thrilled that my body is getting ready to pop Lulu into the world, I'm not so thrilled to have searing pain with every step I take. It even hurts if I'm sitting the wrong way! My doctor tells me this is normal, and that heating pads will help.

I'm guessing that standing in the 30* cold waiting for a train to arrive won't help.

Pubis Symphysis

The Pubis Symphysis is the area where the bones of the pelvis come together and are held by some ligament tissue or something. This is also the area that, in a woman, spreads prior to squeezing out a 7-pound baby. From reading wikipedia, this spreading happens in most women during labor and delivery.

Most women.

Lucky me, my pelvis has already started spreading! While I'm thrilled that my body is getting ready to pop Lulu into the world, I'm not so thrilled to have searing pain with every step I take. It even hurts if I'm sitting the wrong way! My doctor tells me this is normal, and that heating pads will help.

I'm guessing that standing in the 30* cold waiting for a train to arrive won't help.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Let me just reach right on up in there...

Yowee!

I had my first internal exam today... I guess "they" do tell you that the internals are uncomfortable. But I figured it would be like PAP smear uncomfortable.

I was wrong. At an internal exam, the doctor spreads your legs, and shoves a begloved hand up in there. To this point, it feels PAP-like. Uncomfortable, but fine. BUT THEN. The doctor just keeps on going! I had no idea a hand could go that far.

Or that the sensation would be so... surprising. And painful!

After one look at my face when the doctor hit that "magic spot" Hubby said, "Ha! I don't think she's dilated!" The doctor responded, "Nope!"

So there you have it. I am 0 cm dilated, 0% effaced. I have had only the mildest contraction type Braxton-Hicks. Lulu is going to take her time coming out!

Let me just reach right on up in there...

Yowee!

I had my first internal exam today... I guess "they" do tell you that the internals are uncomfortable. But I figured it would be like PAP smear uncomfortable.

I was wrong. At an internal exam, the doctor spreads your legs, and shoves a begloved hand up in there. To this point, it feels PAP-like. Uncomfortable, but fine. BUT THEN. The doctor just keeps on going! I had no idea a hand could go that far.

Or that the sensation would be so... surprising. And painful!

After one look at my face when the doctor hit that "magic spot" Hubby said, "Ha! I don't think she's dilated!" The doctor responded, "Nope!"

So there you have it. I am 0 cm dilated, 0% effaced. I have had only the mildest contraction type Braxton-Hicks. Lulu is going to take her time coming out!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

34 Weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Probably around 30, but I don't care anymore.
Maternity clothes? The shirts (what few I have) are getting a little short. I'm not sure if I should blame the growing belly, or the dryer that shrinks EVERYTHING.
Sleep: Pretty good this week...
Best moment this week: Playing in all the snow!
Movement: Tons. She's like a ninja with all her swift kicks and punches.
Food cravings: M&M's, coffee (decaf, don't worry)
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: The exit ramp pain is still there, UTI perhaps? And some really tiny BH contractions.
Belly button? Still not completely popped out...
What I miss: Sitting comfortably for a full day.
Weekly wisdom: Don't shovel snow.
Milestones: The countdown is on. Under 50 days to go!

34 Weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Probably around 30, but I don't care anymore.
Maternity clothes? The shirts (what few I have) are getting a little short. I'm not sure if I should blame the growing belly, or the dryer that shrinks EVERYTHING.
Sleep: Pretty good this week...
Best moment this week: Playing in all the snow!
Movement: Tons. She's like a ninja with all her swift kicks and punches.
Food cravings: M&M's, coffee (decaf, don't worry)
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: The exit ramp pain is still there, UTI perhaps? And some really tiny BH contractions.
Belly button? Still not completely popped out...
What I miss: Sitting comfortably for a full day.
Weekly wisdom: Don't shovel snow.
Milestones: The countdown is on. Under 50 days to go!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Hiccups

For weeks, my mom has been asking if I've felt the baby hiccup yet. She seems so sxcited when she asks, "Have you felt any hiccups yet?!" Nope. Nothing. Lulu is incredibly active, but not a hicupper.

Until tonight. I finally felt her hiccup! And where did I have the pleasure of feeling this funny sensation? In my butt. That's right. My butt was getting whumped every 15 seconds or so.

At least we know she's head down, right?!

Hiccups

For weeks, my mom has been asking if I've felt the baby hiccup yet. She seems so sxcited when she asks, "Have you felt any hiccups yet?!" Nope. Nothing. Lulu is incredibly active, but not a hicupper.

Until tonight. I finally felt her hiccup! And where did I have the pleasure of feeling this funny sensation? In my butt. That's right. My butt was getting whumped every 15 seconds or so.

At least we know she's head down, right?!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Ew.

So for whatever reason, I am reading a 17th century midwives handbook. Each chapter deals with some part or another of pregnancy and childbirth. I'm just now reading the section on hemorrhoids, and am horrified by the suggested methods to deal with them! Bloodletting is nothing compared to:

Take twelve red snails without their shells, 30 or 40 wood-lice, boil them for a small time in linseed oil, and make an ointment thereof, and annoint the hemorrhoids therewith.

I'm sorry. Boiled snails and lice?? Rubbed onto my backside??? NO THANK YOU!

Reading this handbook, I am constantly reminded of how thankful I am to be delivering in the 21st century!!

Ew.

So for whatever reason, I am reading a 17th century midwives handbook. Each chapter deals with some part or another of pregnancy and childbirth. I'm just now reading the section on hemorrhoids, and am horrified by the suggested methods to deal with them! Bloodletting is nothing compared to:

Take twelve red snails without their shells, 30 or 40 wood-lice, boil them for a small time in linseed oil, and make an ointment thereof, and annoint the hemorrhoids therewith.

I'm sorry. Boiled snails and lice?? Rubbed onto my backside??? NO THANK YOU!

Reading this handbook, I am constantly reminded of how thankful I am to be delivering in the 21st century!!

What a day...

I have already been locked IN my office this morning.

And apparently the building is testing the fire alarms today, to the noise is just fantastic.

This is one of those days where I am regretting the decision to get out of bed...

What a day...

I have already been locked IN my office this morning.

And apparently the building is testing the fire alarms today, to the noise is just fantastic.

This is one of those days where I am regretting the decision to get out of bed...

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

32 Week Belly

Because I'm not so good at posting belly pictures, here's one from my staff holiday party last week. Enjoy!

32 Week Belly

Because I'm not so good at posting belly pictures, here's one from my staff holiday party last week. Enjoy!

Monday, December 14, 2009

33 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: Last week I was up 27, but I still just don't care.
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: Terrible. She's kicking harder.
Best moment this week: Getting the house completely decorated for Christmas!
Movement: She is a mover and a shaker. I swear, the kicks are getting really hard - especially if I haven't eaten enough! Little piggy...
Food cravings: M&M's, milkshakes, salad
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: I have been getting a funny feeling in my exit ramp area the last week or so... not painful at all, but as if something is happening. I'm going to ask about it at my next appointment next week.
Belly button? Still not completely popped out...
What I miss: SLEEP. And not feeling breathless after a flight of stairs.
Weekly wisdom: Make sure you eat enough. A hungry baby is a violent, keep you up at night baby.
Milestones: I'm starting to understand what women mean when they say they were "uncomfortable" toward the end. While this might not be fun, I feel it's a milestone. I'm getting near the end! Still feeling great, considering, just a little uncomfortable!

33 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: Last week I was up 27, but I still just don't care.
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: Terrible. She's kicking harder.
Best moment this week: Getting the house completely decorated for Christmas!
Movement: She is a mover and a shaker. I swear, the kicks are getting really hard - especially if I haven't eaten enough! Little piggy...
Food cravings: M&M's, milkshakes, salad
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: I have been getting a funny feeling in my exit ramp area the last week or so... not painful at all, but as if something is happening. I'm going to ask about it at my next appointment next week.
Belly button? Still not completely popped out...
What I miss: SLEEP. And not feeling breathless after a flight of stairs.
Weekly wisdom: Make sure you eat enough. A hungry baby is a violent, keep you up at night baby.
Milestones: I'm starting to understand what women mean when they say they were "uncomfortable" toward the end. While this might not be fun, I feel it's a milestone. I'm getting near the end! Still feeling great, considering, just a little uncomfortable!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

A word to the wise

If you are pregnant or considering the possibility, please take this advice. Do make an attempt to slow down and ask for help. Lifting things and running up and down stairs really isn't a good idea.

In the midst of all my cleaning and organizing last night, I suddenly felt very achy and flu-like, a bit nauseous, and all primarily located on the right side of my abdomen. I ignored it for a little, simply thinking, "I wonder why I feel so crappy."

Then it occurred to me. I was probably overexerting myself, and bringing on some sort of contraction. I did what they tell you to do: stopped what I was doing, drank a lot of cool water, and laid down on my left side.

Funny thing. It worked.

The lesson here is: Listen to your body. Don't be stupid. You can move the breadmaker later.

Things you never knew about pregnancy

You catch find your husband staring, mouth agape, at your belly.

"It just goes straight out. I mean, it's like you shoved a basketball under your shirt. And it's just going straight out. It's so round! Does your back hurt??"

Thanks Captain Obvious! I had not realized that my spherical tummy goes straight out!

A word to the wise

If you are pregnant or considering the possibility, please take this advice. Do make an attempt to slow down and ask for help. Lifting things and running up and down stairs really isn't a good idea.

In the midst of all my cleaning and organizing last night, I suddenly felt very achy and flu-like, a bit nauseous, and all primarily located on the right side of my abdomen. I ignored it for a little, simply thinking, "I wonder why I feel so crappy."

Then it occurred to me. I was probably overexerting myself, and bringing on some sort of contraction. I did what they tell you to do: stopped what I was doing, drank a lot of cool water, and laid down on my left side.

Funny thing. It worked.

The lesson here is: Listen to your body. Don't be stupid. You can move the breadmaker later.

Things you never knew about pregnancy

You catch find your husband staring, mouth agape, at your belly.

"It just goes straight out. I mean, it's like you shoved a basketball under your shirt. And it's just going straight out. It's so round! Does your back hurt??"

Thanks Captain Obvious! I had not realized that my spherical tummy goes straight out!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Busy Bee

We have been busy chez moi! I've been meaning to post something meaningful, my apologies. Here's a quick look at what's been happening:

1) We went to birth class!
A two-day jam-packed information session on how to give birth at our hospital of choice. This included everything from what things might feel like, when to hop in the car, what to bring (and what is completely unnecessary), and where to go at the hospital. I have to say, I already new a lot of the birthing information from the fantastic yoga class I go to every week. Which is reassuring in a way - I feel as though I've been preparing myself really well! The parts that were most valuable to me were:
(a) Hubby actually heard everything from someone other then me (even though he said, "Duh, it's all common sense.") Yes. It is common sense. But it's good to start thinking about it now! and,
(b) the hospital tour. I feel so much more ready for The Day now that I know where to go and what everything looks like. I am definitely someone who needs to know logistics to feel comfortable.

2) I wrote a crappy nineteen-page paper! It was supposed to be 20-25, but I just couldn't write anything else. And I couldn't add anymore pictures. And my bibliography just was not going to exceed two pages. So I called it a day and sent it in. I'm so over grad school, I just don't even care anymore. (Good thing I have another 15-20 page paper due in the next two weeks...)

3) I'm 32 weeks!!! Feeling... much less comfortable. I have been so lucky this whole pregnancy, in so many ways. Hubby and I had no trouble getting or staying pregnant, for which we count our blessings everyday. I had little morning sickness. I've stayed cute. I only have a few stretchmarks on my boobs (I keep expecting real ones anyday now...). I can eat as much sugar as I like. And I've been reallllllly comfortable! Till now. Lulu has a foot lodged deep between my ribs. It hurts. I arch my back in weird ways to relieve the sharp heel-induced pain, which makes my upper back ache to no end. It's all for a good cause - I mean, at least Lulu has that little foot, and I'm sure it's a cute one at that!! And, considering everything, I still have a lot of energy and am still generally feeling good. Like I said, I'm incredibly lucky.

4) I planned and pulled off a holiday party at work! Along with two co-workers, we planned and hosted a very fun party this afternoon. I can honestly say, this was one of the best holiday parties my office has had in a long time. The theme (fire and ice) was just enough to spark people's creativity for the potluck. We had spicy, red foods and we had cold, blue snacks. The spread was as tasty as it was colorful, and people really had a lot of fun!

5) Our stroller/car seat combo arrived!! It's a huge relief, knowing that we have a seat restraint to bring Lulu home from the hospital in. I would still like to wait to use it for at least 6 more weeks. You hear that, little girl??

6) Hubby and I are hosting our annual holiday party on Saturday! I'd invite you all, but then I'd have to lift my mask of anonymity. The house isn't ready at all... we have a Christmas tree in the stand (and I'm trying to remember to water it), but it's not decorated. I haven't even brought the decorations up from the basement yet! And the house is a MESS. I seriously don't even know where to start. Not that I've had time! It'll get clean, the house will be decorated, and the party will be terrific. I just need to survive that long!

I think that's about it... I hope you all are enjoying the holidays!

Busy Bee

We have been busy chez moi! I've been meaning to post something meaningful, my apologies. Here's a quick look at what's been happening:

1) We went to birth class!
A two-day jam-packed information session on how to give birth at our hospital of choice. This included everything from what things might feel like, when to hop in the car, what to bring (and what is completely unnecessary), and where to go at the hospital. I have to say, I already new a lot of the birthing information from the fantastic yoga class I go to every week. Which is reassuring in a way - I feel as though I've been preparing myself really well! The parts that were most valuable to me were:
(a) Hubby actually heard everything from someone other then me (even though he said, "Duh, it's all common sense.") Yes. It is common sense. But it's good to start thinking about it now! and,
(b) the hospital tour. I feel so much more ready for The Day now that I know where to go and what everything looks like. I am definitely someone who needs to know logistics to feel comfortable.

2) I wrote a crappy nineteen-page paper! It was supposed to be 20-25, but I just couldn't write anything else. And I couldn't add anymore pictures. And my bibliography just was not going to exceed two pages. So I called it a day and sent it in. I'm so over grad school, I just don't even care anymore. (Good thing I have another 15-20 page paper due in the next two weeks...)

3) I'm 32 weeks!!! Feeling... much less comfortable. I have been so lucky this whole pregnancy, in so many ways. Hubby and I had no trouble getting or staying pregnant, for which we count our blessings everyday. I had little morning sickness. I've stayed cute. I only have a few stretchmarks on my boobs (I keep expecting real ones anyday now...). I can eat as much sugar as I like. And I've been reallllllly comfortable! Till now. Lulu has a foot lodged deep between my ribs. It hurts. I arch my back in weird ways to relieve the sharp heel-induced pain, which makes my upper back ache to no end. It's all for a good cause - I mean, at least Lulu has that little foot, and I'm sure it's a cute one at that!! And, considering everything, I still have a lot of energy and am still generally feeling good. Like I said, I'm incredibly lucky.

4) I planned and pulled off a holiday party at work! Along with two co-workers, we planned and hosted a very fun party this afternoon. I can honestly say, this was one of the best holiday parties my office has had in a long time. The theme (fire and ice) was just enough to spark people's creativity for the potluck. We had spicy, red foods and we had cold, blue snacks. The spread was as tasty as it was colorful, and people really had a lot of fun!

5) Our stroller/car seat combo arrived!! It's a huge relief, knowing that we have a seat restraint to bring Lulu home from the hospital in. I would still like to wait to use it for at least 6 more weeks. You hear that, little girl??

6) Hubby and I are hosting our annual holiday party on Saturday! I'd invite you all, but then I'd have to lift my mask of anonymity. The house isn't ready at all... we have a Christmas tree in the stand (and I'm trying to remember to water it), but it's not decorated. I haven't even brought the decorations up from the basement yet! And the house is a MESS. I seriously don't even know where to start. Not that I've had time! It'll get clean, the house will be decorated, and the party will be terrific. I just need to survive that long!

I think that's about it... I hope you all are enjoying the holidays!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

The paper still sucks.

But you know what doesn't suck?

My Hubby.

He just brought me up a french bread pizza to help me focus. Because he's the bestest!

The paper still sucks.

But you know what doesn't suck?

My Hubby.

He just brought me up a french bread pizza to help me focus. Because he's the bestest!

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Papers Suck.

Just a little note to let you know I'm procrastinating. 6 pages down, and only 14 to go!

Crap.

Papers Suck.

Just a little note to let you know I'm procrastinating. 6 pages down, and only 14 to go!

Crap.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Just a tip

Don't leave your tea kettle unattended on the stove for over an hour without the whistle engaged. It will catch fire.

Just a tip

Don't leave your tea kettle unattended on the stove for over an hour without the whistle engaged. It will catch fire.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

A note to the haters

I'm not that huge! Seriously!
This picture was taken on Thanksgiving (note the green bean casserole in front of me). I added some lines to show my actual shape, since the dress was a bit flowy.

I'm 7 months pregnant. I'm feeling good. I'm neither HUGE nor small for how far along I am. I'm just right. Please stop telling me that I'm going to "drop any day now."

Trust me. I'm going to get a whole lot bigger.

Ok, even I freak out now and then

I will not google. I will not google. I will wait to call my doctor at 9am. I will not google.

This is the mantra going through my head right now. I got an email last night from my uncle warning me that my grandfather (age 93) has just been diagnosed with shingles. Contagious and dangerous.

I haven't seen my grandpa in two years, so it's reasonable that I spent ALL Thanksgiving by his side. I have definitely been exposed. CRAP!

And not to mention, I am worried about my grandpa. At 93, this cannot be an easy illness to get over. My mom was down with shingles for over a year when I was 14... I hope he's ok...

A note to the haters

I'm not that huge! Seriously!
This picture was taken on Thanksgiving (note the green bean casserole in front of me). I added some lines to show my actual shape, since the dress was a bit flowy.

I'm 7 months pregnant. I'm feeling good. I'm neither HUGE nor small for how far along I am. I'm just right. Please stop telling me that I'm going to "drop any day now."

Trust me. I'm going to get a whole lot bigger.

Ok, even I freak out now and then

I will not google. I will not google. I will wait to call my doctor at 9am. I will not google.

This is the mantra going through my head right now. I got an email last night from my uncle warning me that my grandfather (age 93) has just been diagnosed with shingles. Contagious and dangerous.

I haven't seen my grandpa in two years, so it's reasonable that I spent ALL Thanksgiving by his side. I have definitely been exposed. CRAP!

And not to mention, I am worried about my grandpa. At 93, this cannot be an easy illness to get over. My mom was down with shingles for over a year when I was 14... I hope he's ok...

Monday, November 30, 2009

31 Weeks!

I'm back! Did you miss me? Well, I missed you.

Total weight gain/loss: I don't even care anymore. I still feel really small for how far along I am, so I figure numbers don't matter.
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: I didn't sleep at all this past week at my parents'. I just couldn't get comfy. So I slept REALLY well back in my own bed last night. It felt great!
Best moment this week: A whole week at home with my mom's cooking. No work. Nothing that had to be done.
Other best moment this week: A third shower! My mom's friends are the greatest.
Movement: My little sea serpent is writhing around in there almost constantly. And she's finally letting Hubby feel all her rolls! So actually, here is the Best moment this pregnancy: Hubby's face lighting up like a Christmas tree when he felt her move a few days ago. Now I know that he was lying to me about feeling her all those other times I put his hand on my tummy. A good sport :-)
Food cravings: M&M's (the Christmas ones are out!), hamburgers, milkshakes, salad
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: I've had some tightening, usually when I really have to pee. But nothing painful, nothing regular, and nothing lasting.
Belly button? Still not completely popped out...
What I miss: This past week, I was missing pumpkin beer. But I also still miss bending over. And SLEEP.
Weekly wisdom: Eat what you want. What does it matter in the end anyway?
Milestones: Daddy felt his little girl!

31 Weeks!

I'm back! Did you miss me? Well, I missed you.

Total weight gain/loss: I don't even care anymore. I still feel really small for how far along I am, so I figure numbers don't matter.
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: I didn't sleep at all this past week at my parents'. I just couldn't get comfy. So I slept REALLY well back in my own bed last night. It felt great!
Best moment this week: A whole week at home with my mom's cooking. No work. Nothing that had to be done.
Other best moment this week: A third shower! My mom's friends are the greatest.
Movement: My little sea serpent is writhing around in there almost constantly. And she's finally letting Hubby feel all her rolls! So actually, here is the Best moment this pregnancy: Hubby's face lighting up like a Christmas tree when he felt her move a few days ago. Now I know that he was lying to me about feeling her all those other times I put his hand on my tummy. A good sport :-)
Food cravings: M&M's (the Christmas ones are out!), hamburgers, milkshakes, salad
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: I've had some tightening, usually when I really have to pee. But nothing painful, nothing regular, and nothing lasting.
Belly button? Still not completely popped out...
What I miss: This past week, I was missing pumpkin beer. But I also still miss bending over. And SLEEP.
Weekly wisdom: Eat what you want. What does it matter in the end anyway?
Milestones: Daddy felt his little girl!

Friday, November 27, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving!

Dinner last night was great. And now I'm sitting at my parents' kitchen table. NOT writing my 20 page paper that's due. Nor am I writing my 15 page paper that's due.

I need some sort of wonder cure for procrastination...

Happy Thanksgiving!

Dinner last night was great. And now I'm sitting at my parents' kitchen table. NOT writing my 20 page paper that's due. Nor am I writing my 15 page paper that's due.

I need some sort of wonder cure for procrastination...

Monday, November 23, 2009

A few days off

Hello from my parent's family room! I am happily off from work for the WHOLE WEEK!! No work, no school.

Well, a little school... I have two papers to research and write while I'm here! So if I'm a little quiet over the next few days, it's because I am enjoying my time away from the computer... and possibly doing a little of my long-neglected homework.

Things I am excited for:
TURKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BABY SHOWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll be sure to post about the shower sometime next week :-)

A few days off

Hello from my parent's family room! I am happily off from work for the WHOLE WEEK!! No work, no school.

Well, a little school... I have two papers to research and write while I'm here! So if I'm a little quiet over the next few days, it's because I am enjoying my time away from the computer... and possibly doing a little of my long-neglected homework.

Things I am excited for:
TURKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BABY SHOWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll be sure to post about the shower sometime next week :-)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Two Down!

I have now been celebrated at TWO showers! My coworkers gave me the sweetest little shower Tuesday afternoon. Pink cupcakes and all! With all the showering going on, Lulu and I have been feeling very special.

Because we are special. :-)

We are also making out like bandits! You should see all the loot filling Lulu's room. And there will be more after next week! My mom's friends are throwing me yet another shower when I am there for the holidays!!

And did I mention I'm taking all of next week off from work? I can't wait. I so desperately need a few mornings to sleep in! Well, that and the time to start the two papers I have due at the beginning of December. I'm in denial over them.

Two Down!

I have now been celebrated at TWO showers! My coworkers gave me the sweetest little shower Tuesday afternoon. Pink cupcakes and all! With all the showering going on, Lulu and I have been feeling very special.

Because we are special. :-)

We are also making out like bandits! You should see all the loot filling Lulu's room. And there will be more after next week! My mom's friends are throwing me yet another shower when I am there for the holidays!!

And did I mention I'm taking all of next week off from work? I can't wait. I so desperately need a few mornings to sleep in! Well, that and the time to start the two papers I have due at the beginning of December. I'm in denial over them.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Lulu is one lucky girl, with a very talented grandmother!
My mom painted the mural on the wall based on the fabric she found to handmake the curtains, bumpers and bedskirt. I am so impressed by how it turned out! I could never have made the room look half as good as my mom did!
Lulu is one lucky girl, with a very talented grandmother!
My mom painted the mural on the wall based on the fabric she found to handmake the curtains, bumpers and bedskirt. I am so impressed by how it turned out! I could never have made the room look half as good as my mom did!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Go me!

Even with my strict all-sugar diet, I only gained two pounds in the last three weeks! The nurse today let me see my starting number and current number, so I did out the math.

+23 pounds total!

Go me!

Even with my strict all-sugar diet, I only gained two pounds in the last three weeks! The nurse today let me see my starting number and current number, so I did out the math.

+23 pounds total!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

29 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: Not a clue. I have an appt tomorrow...
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: It's terrible. I lie awake for hours, and just get a little dozing in before sunrise. My back aches.
Best moment this week: Lulu's room is decorated! My mom made all the bedding with the cutest fabric - red stripe background (looks pink), with blue medallions with images of monkeys and giraffes. I LOVE IT! And since my mom is so talented, she painted the little scenes on one of the walls of the room! It looks amazing.
Other best moment this week: My first shower! My wonderful sister-in-law flew in from afar to host a shower in my honor with all my friends. It was at an adorable tea house the next town over. We received some really wonderful and thoughtful presents - and enjoyed delicious scones and cakes!
Another best moment this week: Hubby telling me that I need to ask for help more often. I quote: "Hun, I'm really glad you are staying so active. I don't want you to slow down, because it's good for you to keep doing things. But PLEASE, would you ask for help a little more often? It's ridiculous that you are trying to do SO much, when there are people around (me) who want to help!"
This is a big change from his usual, cavalier, you-can-do-it, self!
Movement: SOOOO active, it's nuts. And she even showed off a little for my mom (but still won't for her daddy).
Food cravings: M&M's (the Christmas ones are out!), hamburgers, milkshakes
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: No thank you!
Belly button? Getting closer to the surface...
What I miss: Bending over. It has gotten to the point where scrunching my tummy is really uncomfortable. And I'm having trouble sitting and then getting up again. And I got stuck when I thought I could squeeze through a spot and couldn't. This is all new in the last few days...
What I am looking forward to: My coworkers are giving me a shower on Tuesday! I'm very loved :-)
Weekly wisdom: Stop bending over. It's now time to ask for help - even for the silly little things.
Milestones: Lulu has a place to sleep whenever she decides to make her debut! (Hopefully not for another 8 to 11 weeks!)

29 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: Not a clue. I have an appt tomorrow...
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: It's terrible. I lie awake for hours, and just get a little dozing in before sunrise. My back aches.
Best moment this week: Lulu's room is decorated! My mom made all the bedding with the cutest fabric - red stripe background (looks pink), with blue medallions with images of monkeys and giraffes. I LOVE IT! And since my mom is so talented, she painted the little scenes on one of the walls of the room! It looks amazing.
Other best moment this week: My first shower! My wonderful sister-in-law flew in from afar to host a shower in my honor with all my friends. It was at an adorable tea house the next town over. We received some really wonderful and thoughtful presents - and enjoyed delicious scones and cakes!
Another best moment this week: Hubby telling me that I need to ask for help more often. I quote: "Hun, I'm really glad you are staying so active. I don't want you to slow down, because it's good for you to keep doing things. But PLEASE, would you ask for help a little more often? It's ridiculous that you are trying to do SO much, when there are people around (me) who want to help!"
This is a big change from his usual, cavalier, you-can-do-it, self!
Movement: SOOOO active, it's nuts. And she even showed off a little for my mom (but still won't for her daddy).
Food cravings: M&M's (the Christmas ones are out!), hamburgers, milkshakes
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: No thank you!
Belly button? Getting closer to the surface...
What I miss: Bending over. It has gotten to the point where scrunching my tummy is really uncomfortable. And I'm having trouble sitting and then getting up again. And I got stuck when I thought I could squeeze through a spot and couldn't. This is all new in the last few days...
What I am looking forward to: My coworkers are giving me a shower on Tuesday! I'm very loved :-)
Weekly wisdom: Stop bending over. It's now time to ask for help - even for the silly little things.
Milestones: Lulu has a place to sleep whenever she decides to make her debut! (Hopefully not for another 8 to 11 weeks!)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Apologies!

Sorry to have not posted for so long. It's been a busy week! Good busy, but busy nonetheless. I should have some great stuff to post tomorrow or Monday :-)

Apologies!

Sorry to have not posted for so long. It's been a busy week! Good busy, but busy nonetheless. I should have some great stuff to post tomorrow or Monday :-)

Monday, November 9, 2009

28 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: I'm still saying +26. My scale at home has been saying the same number for weeks (+20). And appears to be about 5 lbs lower than the scale at the Dr. I like my scale better.
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: I would love some.
Best moment this week: Hubby mopped the kitchen for me before I even woke up Saturday morning. He's the best.
Movement: SOOOO active, it's nuts. I love watching her wriggles and rolls.
Food cravings: M&M's (the Christmas ones are out!), hamburgers, milkshakes
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: No thank you!
Belly button? Getting closer to the surface...
What I miss: Having time (and motivation) to get my schoolwork done. By time, I mean that OMG the end of the semester is rapidly approaching!
What I am looking forward to: My mom is coming this weekend! With furniture for Lulu's room!
Weekly wisdom: Deep breath. It'll all get done. And if it doesn't, it'll be ok.
Milestones: Third trimester! 12 weeks to go!! (At least, hopefully no fewer than 9 and no more than 12 - let's be on time, Lulu!)

28 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: I'm still saying +26. My scale at home has been saying the same number for weeks (+20). And appears to be about 5 lbs lower than the scale at the Dr. I like my scale better.
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: I would love some.
Best moment this week: Hubby mopped the kitchen for me before I even woke up Saturday morning. He's the best.
Movement: SOOOO active, it's nuts. I love watching her wriggles and rolls.
Food cravings: M&M's (the Christmas ones are out!), hamburgers, milkshakes
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: No thank you!
Belly button? Getting closer to the surface...
What I miss: Having time (and motivation) to get my schoolwork done. By time, I mean that OMG the end of the semester is rapidly approaching!
What I am looking forward to: My mom is coming this weekend! With furniture for Lulu's room!
Weekly wisdom: Deep breath. It'll all get done. And if it doesn't, it'll be ok.
Milestones: Third trimester! 12 weeks to go!! (At least, hopefully no fewer than 9 and no more than 12 - let's be on time, Lulu!)

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Feeling Better

I am not sure what I would do without To-Do lists. They make me sane. On the other hand, sometimes To-Do lists are exactly what triggers my outbursts of panic and insanity. I think that the three-page (typed) To-Do list, partnered with Professor Devil Incarnate are what set me off the other day.

Thankfully, I have the best Hubby in the world. Before I had even crawled out of bed yesterday morning, he was halfway through mopping the kitchen. With white tiles (not my choice), a big dog, and red clay soil, mopping is never an easy feat. And he got those tiles whiter than I have seen them in years! Must be from pouring undiluted bleach directly onto the floor... Don't worry, I hid upstairs with the windows open until the house aired out a bit!

Hubby continued his greatness by dusting the downstairs (again, dog + red clay soil = disaster), cleaning our room, bathing the dog (see above), and doing 4 loads of laundry.

I added by finally getting Lulu's room completely emptied out and vacuumed. And with that, an enormous portion of the To-Do list is done!

I still have three papers left to write. I originally had four, but I realized that the one paper doesn't have a due date (a rewrite for my programs writing requirement), and that I was being unrealistic and unfair to myself to think I could have a draft ready to take to the writing center by Wednesday. I'm going to cancel that appointment, and hold off on further drafts until I get the other three done.

Part of sanity of staying realistic.

Please remind me of this lesson in a few months when I'm trying to be Mother of the Year, and am left weeping at 4am with a crying baby.

Feeling Better

I am not sure what I would do without To-Do lists. They make me sane. On the other hand, sometimes To-Do lists are exactly what triggers my outbursts of panic and insanity. I think that the three-page (typed) To-Do list, partnered with Professor Devil Incarnate are what set me off the other day.

Thankfully, I have the best Hubby in the world. Before I had even crawled out of bed yesterday morning, he was halfway through mopping the kitchen. With white tiles (not my choice), a big dog, and red clay soil, mopping is never an easy feat. And he got those tiles whiter than I have seen them in years! Must be from pouring undiluted bleach directly onto the floor... Don't worry, I hid upstairs with the windows open until the house aired out a bit!

Hubby continued his greatness by dusting the downstairs (again, dog + red clay soil = disaster), cleaning our room, bathing the dog (see above), and doing 4 loads of laundry.

I added by finally getting Lulu's room completely emptied out and vacuumed. And with that, an enormous portion of the To-Do list is done!

I still have three papers left to write. I originally had four, but I realized that the one paper doesn't have a due date (a rewrite for my programs writing requirement), and that I was being unrealistic and unfair to myself to think I could have a draft ready to take to the writing center by Wednesday. I'm going to cancel that appointment, and hold off on further drafts until I get the other three done.

Part of sanity of staying realistic.

Please remind me of this lesson in a few months when I'm trying to be Mother of the Year, and am left weeping at 4am with a crying baby.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

OM FREAKING G

Babies are forever. You can't give them back at the end of the night and get $20 in return for your services.

And they don't just stay babies, either. They become children who talk and do things. And you still can't give them back.

I'm seriously freaking out.

OM FREAKING G

Babies are forever. You can't give them back at the end of the night and get $20 in return for your services.

And they don't just stay babies, either. They become children who talk and do things. And you still can't give them back.

I'm seriously freaking out.

The Worst Class Ever.

I'm a graduate student. I'm not sure if I had mentioned that before. But yes, working full time, growing a person, and taking two classes a semester. I must be nuts.

For the most part, graduate school has been a good experience. I have enjoyed my classes, met a few great people, and have learned a lot. Enter one of my two classes this semester.

EPIC. SUCK.

Besides having absolutely no relevance to anything at all, this is the worst class I have ever taken in any of my many years of schooling. The professor is completely self-righteous and egotistical. He spends all class (two hours once a week) rattling off his accomplishments in the field (a field that doesn't exactly exist, I'll add). We are not being tested on any of the "lecture" material, and nothing he says can add any substance to the 20-page paper we have to write by December 2nd.

(And here's where I get to the meat of my frustration):
He does, however, reserve an entire 10% of our grade for "class participation." I'm not sure exactly what he means by this. He doesn't ask questions and there's no chance for anyone to pipe up during lecture anyway. Does class participation mean showing up? Then I get a solid A.

He did specifically invite us to comment during last night's class. So, when Professor Fullofhimself said something blatantly wrong last night, I poked my little hand into the air. He saw it, I know he did. He made eye contact with me! A full five minutes later (I'm a clock watcher), he finally called on me. I said a whole 5 words of my thought - and he completely interrupted me! Blatantly cut me off mid-sentence and started explaining why I was wrong.

Why ask for opinions if you're not going to listen to them?

I was so angry, that I completely shut off for the remainder of class. And by the time I got home (at 10pm), I burst into tears. AND realized that I pay $3,000 for a class that has absolutely no value. I couldn't sleep last night. And I'm still seething this morning.

And here's the thing of it. I'm not a confrontational person, but I actually DO want to confront this professor about his behavior. But I'm so afraid of hurting my grade (because that's the kind of jack ass he is), that I don't feel that I can say anything to him at all. So I'm going to spend my morning drafting a calm but heartfelt email to send to the head of the department.

No one should ever feel this way about a class or professor, no matter how much they are paying in tuition.

The Worst Class Ever.

I'm a graduate student. I'm not sure if I had mentioned that before. But yes, working full time, growing a person, and taking two classes a semester. I must be nuts.

For the most part, graduate school has been a good experience. I have enjoyed my classes, met a few great people, and have learned a lot. Enter one of my two classes this semester.

EPIC. SUCK.

Besides having absolutely no relevance to anything at all, this is the worst class I have ever taken in any of my many years of schooling. The professor is completely self-righteous and egotistical. He spends all class (two hours once a week) rattling off his accomplishments in the field (a field that doesn't exactly exist, I'll add). We are not being tested on any of the "lecture" material, and nothing he says can add any substance to the 20-page paper we have to write by December 2nd.

(And here's where I get to the meat of my frustration):
He does, however, reserve an entire 10% of our grade for "class participation." I'm not sure exactly what he means by this. He doesn't ask questions and there's no chance for anyone to pipe up during lecture anyway. Does class participation mean showing up? Then I get a solid A.

He did specifically invite us to comment during last night's class. So, when Professor Fullofhimself said something blatantly wrong last night, I poked my little hand into the air. He saw it, I know he did. He made eye contact with me! A full five minutes later (I'm a clock watcher), he finally called on me. I said a whole 5 words of my thought - and he completely interrupted me! Blatantly cut me off mid-sentence and started explaining why I was wrong.

Why ask for opinions if you're not going to listen to them?

I was so angry, that I completely shut off for the remainder of class. And by the time I got home (at 10pm), I burst into tears. AND realized that I pay $3,000 for a class that has absolutely no value. I couldn't sleep last night. And I'm still seething this morning.

And here's the thing of it. I'm not a confrontational person, but I actually DO want to confront this professor about his behavior. But I'm so afraid of hurting my grade (because that's the kind of jack ass he is), that I don't feel that I can say anything to him at all. So I'm going to spend my morning drafting a calm but heartfelt email to send to the head of the department.

No one should ever feel this way about a class or professor, no matter how much they are paying in tuition.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

The Class

So... I went to the breastfeeding class by myself on Sunday. It actually was fine that Hubby wasn't there, so thanks for the support!

The class itself was informative, but not exactly the most earth-shattering 2-hour session I've been to. The teacher talked about how to get a proper latch, and how to tell if the baby is not latched properly. There was a video to help show this - which was very helpful. Some information on what to do if ___. Some information (I expected this) on why breastfeeding is the best thing in the world and how can you love your baby if you don't do it.

Let's be realistic people. I want to breastfeed my baby. It is good for the baby. It is good for the mom. It is less expensive (in the long run). And so many other things. But if my baby isn't getting enough food, I'm going to give her some formula! And once I go back to work, I have no idea if I'll be able to keep pumping. I work in a very supportive environment, so I'd like to think that I'll be able to pump. But I keep wondering where said pumping might occur! Definitely not at my cubicle (where I happen to be on the end. with a window onto a busy hallway). Definitely not in the file room (the only place near my desk with a door - and no cameras!). Definitely not in either of the glass-walled conference rooms. This leaves the bathroom. Where there is no place to sit. So we'll see.

Things that I did get out of the class? A very heartwarming feeling about the hospital at which I will be delivering. I have wanted to have Lulu placed on me all slimey and wonderful immediately after her birth. I have wanted to be able to hold her for as long as possible before the exams and bath. I have wanted to feed her as soon as possible.

And the hospital fully supports and encourages these actions. Insert relieved smile.

The Class

So... I went to the breastfeeding class by myself on Sunday. It actually was fine that Hubby wasn't there, so thanks for the support!

The class itself was informative, but not exactly the most earth-shattering 2-hour session I've been to. The teacher talked about how to get a proper latch, and how to tell if the baby is not latched properly. There was a video to help show this - which was very helpful. Some information on what to do if ___. Some information (I expected this) on why breastfeeding is the best thing in the world and how can you love your baby if you don't do it.

Let's be realistic people. I want to breastfeed my baby. It is good for the baby. It is good for the mom. It is less expensive (in the long run). And so many other things. But if my baby isn't getting enough food, I'm going to give her some formula! And once I go back to work, I have no idea if I'll be able to keep pumping. I work in a very supportive environment, so I'd like to think that I'll be able to pump. But I keep wondering where said pumping might occur! Definitely not at my cubicle (where I happen to be on the end. with a window onto a busy hallway). Definitely not in the file room (the only place near my desk with a door - and no cameras!). Definitely not in either of the glass-walled conference rooms. This leaves the bathroom. Where there is no place to sit. So we'll see.

Things that I did get out of the class? A very heartwarming feeling about the hospital at which I will be delivering. I have wanted to have Lulu placed on me all slimey and wonderful immediately after her birth. I have wanted to be able to hold her for as long as possible before the exams and bath. I have wanted to feed her as soon as possible.

And the hospital fully supports and encourages these actions. Insert relieved smile.

Monday, November 2, 2009

27 Weeks!

Please excuse the bad picture - I took this with my phone!

Total weight gain/loss: I'm gonna throw out +26 and be done with it.

Maternity clothes? :-)

Sleep: Terrible. I just want to sleep on my back or right side. Back is out, since it's just plum not allowed, and right side is out because my ribs are freaking killing me on that side!

Best moment this week: PASSING THE GLUCOSE TEST!!!

Movement: My little wiggle worm... I just wish she'd find someplace other than my ribs to kick!

Food cravings: Last night I would have killed for a pizza with gummy bears and ice cream. But in general, I really love cheeseburgers and milkshakes.

Gender: GIRL!!!

Labor signs: No thank you!

Belly button? Getting closer to the surface...

What I miss: Sleep. On my back. And on my right side. And in any form that doesn't make me more tired when I wake up.

What I am looking forward to: Third trimester! Almost there!

Weekly wisdom: Try not to eat every piece of candy in sight. And if given the opportunity to eat FOUR WHOLE CUPCAKES, try to limit yourself. The sugar crash isn't worth it.

Milestones: Third tri in T-minus 6 days!!

27 Weeks!

Please excuse the bad picture - I took this with my phone!

Total weight gain/loss: I'm gonna throw out +26 and be done with it.

Maternity clothes? :-)

Sleep: Terrible. I just want to sleep on my back or right side. Back is out, since it's just plum not allowed, and right side is out because my ribs are freaking killing me on that side!

Best moment this week: PASSING THE GLUCOSE TEST!!!

Movement: My little wiggle worm... I just wish she'd find someplace other than my ribs to kick!

Food cravings: Last night I would have killed for a pizza with gummy bears and ice cream. But in general, I really love cheeseburgers and milkshakes.

Gender: GIRL!!!

Labor signs: No thank you!

Belly button? Getting closer to the surface...

What I miss: Sleep. On my back. And on my right side. And in any form that doesn't make me more tired when I wake up.

What I am looking forward to: Third trimester! Almost there!

Weekly wisdom: Try not to eat every piece of candy in sight. And if given the opportunity to eat FOUR WHOLE CUPCAKES, try to limit yourself. The sugar crash isn't worth it.

Milestones: Third tri in T-minus 6 days!!

Friday, October 30, 2009

Housekeeping

And I'm not talking about tidying the house. I'm talking about keeping things neat... in the nether regions... If you know what I mean.

This is an incredibly difficult task! People always tell you how hard it is to put on shoes, shave, paint your toes... they neglect to tell you that you will not be able to deforest yourself!

I knew things were getting a little scary down there, so I tried last night. With a complex system of mirrors. And still failed. How are you suppose to accomplish some of the most basic elements of hygiene if you can't see anything!

Housekeeping

And I'm not talking about tidying the house. I'm talking about keeping things neat... in the nether regions... If you know what I mean.

This is an incredibly difficult task! People always tell you how hard it is to put on shoes, shave, paint your toes... they neglect to tell you that you will not be able to deforest yourself!

I knew things were getting a little scary down there, so I tried last night. With a complex system of mirrors. And still failed. How are you suppose to accomplish some of the most basic elements of hygiene if you can't see anything!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Glucose Update

I passed!

And now for the celebratory cupcake...

Glucose Update

I passed!

And now for the celebratory cupcake...

Opinions Needed!!!

I am signed up for a breastfeeding class this weekend. Hubby will be out of town, and unable to join me. When I called to sign up, the administrator said that I'd be fine in the class on my own. When I got the information about the class yesterday, however, it says to bring a partner.

And none of my friends (who I would feel comfy asking to a BREASTFEEDING class) are available.

Should I go by myself?

Should I reschedule?

Should I (gasp) ask my MIL to come with me??

I need opinions!!!

Opinions Needed!!!

I am signed up for a breastfeeding class this weekend. Hubby will be out of town, and unable to join me. When I called to sign up, the administrator said that I'd be fine in the class on my own. When I got the information about the class yesterday, however, it says to bring a partner.

And none of my friends (who I would feel comfy asking to a BREASTFEEDING class) are available.

Should I go by myself?

Should I reschedule?

Should I (gasp) ask my MIL to come with me??

I need opinions!!!

Monday, October 26, 2009

The Glucose Test

Apparently you don't get the results till the end of the week. Which means...

I'm continuing my sugar binge till the Dr. calls!!! At least four more days of M&M's!!!

And, for all of you afraid to drink the orange cool-aid - it's not that bad. I followed my Dr's advice and kept it in the fridge to get it as cold as possible. Then I drank it with a straw. Not only do straws make everything more fun, they also help to get things down quicker (a trick I learned with beer in college... fun times...)!

Also, I'm glad I set the timer on my phone to make sure I finished in the required 5 minutes. I was doing really well getting it down, then got distracted and all of a sudden had 45 seconds to drink the last third. I finished with 2 seconds to spare!

The Glucose Test

Apparently you don't get the results till the end of the week. Which means...

I'm continuing my sugar binge till the Dr. calls!!! At least four more days of M&M's!!!

And, for all of you afraid to drink the orange cool-aid - it's not that bad. I followed my Dr's advice and kept it in the fridge to get it as cold as possible. Then I drank it with a straw. Not only do straws make everything more fun, they also help to get things down quicker (a trick I learned with beer in college... fun times...)!

Also, I'm glad I set the timer on my phone to make sure I finished in the required 5 minutes. I was doing really well getting it down, then got distracted and all of a sudden had 45 seconds to drink the last third. I finished with 2 seconds to spare!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

26 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: I haven't checked in a few days, but have an appointment tomorrow. We'll see!
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: I slept all the way through the night on Thursday! It was fantastic. Otherwise, it's not great. There's never enough.
Best moment this week: Waking up Friday morning and realizing I hadn't even rolled over once during the night.
Movement: TONS! But she still won't let anyone feel her from the outside. As soon as a hand is placed on my tummy, she stops. It's like freeze tag or something.
Food cravings: Candy?
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: No thank you!
Belly button? Still shallow, but still an innie!
What I miss: Sleep.
What I am looking forward to: Naptime!
Weekly wisdom: Don't sit for too long - getting up to move around definitely helps with aches and pains.
Milestones: Glucose test tomorrow... I'm hoping to celebrate the results with a cupcake!

26 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: I haven't checked in a few days, but have an appointment tomorrow. We'll see!
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: I slept all the way through the night on Thursday! It was fantastic. Otherwise, it's not great. There's never enough.
Best moment this week: Waking up Friday morning and realizing I hadn't even rolled over once during the night.
Movement: TONS! But she still won't let anyone feel her from the outside. As soon as a hand is placed on my tummy, she stops. It's like freeze tag or something.
Food cravings: Candy?
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: No thank you!
Belly button? Still shallow, but still an innie!
What I miss: Sleep.
What I am looking forward to: Naptime!
Weekly wisdom: Don't sit for too long - getting up to move around definitely helps with aches and pains.
Milestones: Glucose test tomorrow... I'm hoping to celebrate the results with a cupcake!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

AND OMG!

OMG I just realized that I have less than 100 days to go in this pregnancy! Check out my ticker, people, it says "99 Days To Go" up there right now!!

Holy Cow! We are speeding along!

This, of course, assumes that our little friend Lulu doesn't decide to be fashionably late to her own birthday party...

Throwing Punches

video

My baby thinks I'm a punching bag. I've been getting quite the little show!

AND OMG!

OMG I just realized that I have less than 100 days to go in this pregnancy! Check out my ticker, people, it says "99 Days To Go" up there right now!!

Holy Cow! We are speeding along!

This, of course, assumes that our little friend Lulu doesn't decide to be fashionably late to her own birthday party...

Throwing Punches

My baby thinks I'm a punching bag. I've been getting quite the little show!

Throwing Punches

My baby thinks I'm a punching bag. I've been getting quite the little show!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Baby Kicks

Sometimes the baby is so active, and the kicks and punches are so relentless, it actually feels like your insides are being tickled. You have mostly heard about jabs and punches from other pregnant women. So this ticklish pummeling you are now experiencing is quite surprising.

It might be a nice feeling if it weren't happening to your ribs (ouch!) and bladder (time to pee!)!

Baby Kicks

Sometimes the baby is so active, and the kicks and punches are so relentless, it actually feels like your insides are being tickled. You have mostly heard about jabs and punches from other pregnant women. So this ticklish pummeling you are now experiencing is quite surprising.

It might be a nice feeling if it weren't happening to your ribs (ouch!) and bladder (time to pee!)!

Monday, October 19, 2009

25 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: My scale says I'm holding steady at +21. My next appointment is next Monday, so we'll see. I have a knack for adding 5 pounds in that last week!
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: I had to add a pillow to the party. And this pillow is coming with me wherever I go. Is it behind me right now at work? Yup.
Best moment this week: Hubby finally saw my tummy move last night. The child is evasive...
Movement: Tons. But I wish she would stop hitting my rib. I think she has dislocated it. It's very painful. Thus the extra pillow.
Food cravings: I don't want anything in particular lately... ice cream?
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: No thank you!
Belly button? Still shallow, but still an innie!
What I miss: Sleep. And sitting on a couch without pain. And moving without pain. I might have to call the Dr. about this rib thing...
What I am looking forward to: Pajamas at the end of every day.
Weekly wisdom: Stock up on pillows of various sizes and shapes. I'm sporting a bolster at the moment. And it has been wonderful. It even came with me to the bar yesterday to watch some football!
Milestones: I've hit the point of pregnancy discomfort. That has to mean something, right?

25 Weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: My scale says I'm holding steady at +21. My next appointment is next Monday, so we'll see. I have a knack for adding 5 pounds in that last week!
Maternity clothes? :-)
Sleep: I had to add a pillow to the party. And this pillow is coming with me wherever I go. Is it behind me right now at work? Yup.
Best moment this week: Hubby finally saw my tummy move last night. The child is evasive...
Movement: Tons. But I wish she would stop hitting my rib. I think she has dislocated it. It's very painful. Thus the extra pillow.
Food cravings: I don't want anything in particular lately... ice cream?
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: No thank you!
Belly button? Still shallow, but still an innie!
What I miss: Sleep. And sitting on a couch without pain. And moving without pain. I might have to call the Dr. about this rib thing...
What I am looking forward to: Pajamas at the end of every day.
Weekly wisdom: Stock up on pillows of various sizes and shapes. I'm sporting a bolster at the moment. And it has been wonderful. It even came with me to the bar yesterday to watch some football!
Milestones: I've hit the point of pregnancy discomfort. That has to mean something, right?

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

24 Weeks! (and 2 days)


Not a great picture...
This was taken at night, and I'm in a black dress. Focus on the roundy part above my hand,
and please ignore the fact that my back doesn't show up so I look like a whale!

Total weight gain/loss: Definitely up over 20, after the food fest of a weekend I just had! I'm avoiding the scale.
Maternity clothes? Oh yes. And Old Navy is having a huge sale! Tons of stuff for $15, with an additional 15% off if you use the code ONBDAY15!!!
Sleep: Sigh... I just can't get enough.
Best moment this week: Seeing soooo many friends this weekend. And getting in (I'm so bad) a glass of red wine.
Movement: She found my ribs. Ouch! But also still so wonderful...
Food cravings: Hamburgers
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: No thank you!
Belly button? I showed it to my friend and she was amused and horrified at how shallow it is!
What I miss: Red wine (on a regular basis). And also jackets that can button over my tummy.
What I am looking forward to: It's a 4-day week! Yay!
Weekly wisdom: Take naps. Always insist on taking breaks and sitting. And if someone offers you the nicer bed (even though you are a visitor), take it!
Milestones: At 24 weeks (so I hear) there is a chance Lulu could make it if anything were to happen. That said - Stay Put little girl!

24 Weeks! (and 2 days)


Not a great picture...
This was taken at night, and I'm in a black dress. Focus on the roundy part above my hand,
and please ignore the fact that my back doesn't show up so I look like a whale!

Total weight gain/loss: Definitely up over 20, after the food fest of a weekend I just had! I'm avoiding the scale.
Maternity clothes? Oh yes. And Old Navy is having a huge sale! Tons of stuff for $15, with an additional 15% off if you use the code ONBDAY15!!!
Sleep: Sigh... I just can't get enough.
Best moment this week: Seeing soooo many friends this weekend. And getting in (I'm so bad) a glass of red wine.
Movement: She found my ribs. Ouch! But also still so wonderful...
Food cravings: Hamburgers
Gender: GIRL!!!
Labor signs: No thank you!
Belly button? I showed it to my friend and she was amused and horrified at how shallow it is!
What I miss: Red wine (on a regular basis). And also jackets that can button over my tummy.
What I am looking forward to: It's a 4-day week! Yay!
Weekly wisdom: Take naps. Always insist on taking breaks and sitting. And if someone offers you the nicer bed (even though you are a visitor), take it!
Milestones: At 24 weeks (so I hear) there is a chance Lulu could make it if anything were to happen. That said - Stay Put little girl!