I wasn't going to have a good day today, no matter what. Nate and I had a serious conversation about work and money last night that left me feeling more than a little attacked. Yes, I charged thousands of dollars to a Sallie Mae account to get my degree - and now I owe all those thousands back. No, I did not get a raise at work for earning my degree. No, there isn't room for me to get promoted at my current job. No, a raise isn't at all realistic. No, I don't have a spare nickel to show for myself at the end of the month. Yes, I am really freaking worried about this.
I couldn't sleep last night. I was overtired and had a cookie (or three) too close to bedtime. My skin felt all prickly and odd, like I had a rash or something. After tossing and turning, I took a Benadryl to help me fall asleep. I slept fitfully after that, and was not amused when Nate thought he could allay my worries from last night with a little intimacy.
I might have been a little rude. So now I'm worried, tired, and on the shit-list with the husband. The original outfit I put on was too tight and gave me a tummy ache of bloat and over-heatedness. And as I started walking to the train the skies opened, soaking me with rain. It seems fitting that I should be sitting in a cold, wet, cotton dress at work right now. It's a dark and stormy day here. I'm waiting for the rainbow.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
You know how weather sometimes reflects your mood?
2011-08-03T05:18:00-04:00
Caitlin MidAtlantic
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