Last Day

It's my last day of work...

before becoming a mom.
before becoming a working mom.

I'm so full of mixed emotions, I can hardly breath. On the one hand, I'm really excited for some time not working. On the other hand, I'm terrified of how bored I'll be in the (possibly) weeks before Lulu arrives.

And I'm certainly terrified of actually having an infant at home.

And I'm even more terrified of going back to work in April. Of having to leave my little girl at a daycare. Of missing her smiles, coos and achievements during the day. And what if I don't want to go back to work? What if I can't stand being at home all day and really want to go back?!

I'm not sure what's worse... missing my baby all day, or feeling relieved to get away.

I hate uncertainties.